In 2009 I began a new life journey. Although I’ve always been very close to my family and friends I experienced a pull to travel and rediscover myself. I had a sort of light turn on in my head and realized I’d grown out of some of the party girl ways of my twenties and wanted to connect to the other deeper person inside of me. I loved the people in my life but I just wasn’t happy with what I was doing anymore. I needed to grow. I think many of us reach a point in our lives where we realise …wow I’ve changed this life has been great but I’m ready to move on and see what else is there or maybe things that are out of our control make us change…which leads to… who am I NOW? (DEEP J) I have always wanted to travel see the world and experience different people and cultures. I’m a real people person, Huge, Love ‘em. My other love is yoga. The universe must have heard me because I did travel, met new people, fell in love, trained to teach yoga, and began to find out who I am now. Finally I moved to the North East of England!
Considering myself a “fly by the seat of my pants kind of girl” who goes with the flow, I thought adapting and adjusting would be no problem. But travelling and moving away from Canada, the home I had known for over 30 years has been a little bittersweet. On one hand it’s been fresh, new , fun and exciting but to my surprise on the other hand my life change was also challenging, lonely, and unfamiliar once the permanence of my new life settled in…..oh yah. That’s right CHANGE IS NOT EASY! (Even for yoga teachers.) The hard part…almost nothing is permanent so we have no choice.
Many enlightened beings like the Buddha and great yogis and yogacharya have taught that grasping can lead to great suffering. Not letting change happen in any way is fighting nature of the universe. What goes up doesn’t stay up…it must come down.
With all the changes and uncertainty of what the future holds in my new life the one thing that has remained constant, and familiar (apart from my wonderful husband of course) is yoga. It has been my friend when I need one and feels like home when I am homesick. Teaching classes and my own practice has been my solace. Sometimes I am excited to jump on my mat and revel in the present moment, or to express the practice to classes and other times I drag myself. It may take longer to tune in and turn the light of deeper self awareness on but when I’m finished I always feel better and more connected to the present moment and myself and can find more peace and appreciation for the world around me. What IS now. It’s a Practice.
My next blog posts will be a journey through practice to keep finding happiness in the NOW.
I recently watched an amazing film/talk by Deepak Chopra called “The Happiness Prescription. The secret to experiencing a joyful life.” It’s amazing. A must see. It has inspired me to take a closer look at the 10 steps to happiness he talks about and put them into practice in my life, classes, personal practice and here on the blog.
If I have piqued your interest stay tuned!